everyone is doing it

So, everyone is doing this whole "25 random things about yourself" on facebook, and I am refusing to do it...on there. I keep reading them, and I like learning these things about people who I thought I knew pretty well. I debated finally posting one on there, but I've decided to do it here. As I formulated my list in my head, I realized that they're not things I want all my "friends" on facebook learning. My one or two readers at 11:11 can learn them instead.

1. I never go anywhere without my Ipod. It is either in my jacket pocket, my car, my carry-on, etc. I hate being away from my music. You never know when a situation calls for just the right tune.

2. I think my Grandma Bretz is one of the most important people in my life. I think she is the one family member I am most like. She has always seemed to understand me in ways others couldn't.

3. I told my trainer that I want to work out to develop a healthy, active lifestyle. I really want to have the body of Ryan Gosling circa Half Nelson. I don't believe it will every happen.

4. I have created two television series in my head that I think are inspired. I can tell you pretty much everything that will happen to the characters up to about four or five seasons. One is about the end of a relationship and features flashbacks of when the couple was still together. The other is about the social stratification and drama in a hotel. I want Aaron Sorkin to help me write it.

5. I have two tattoos. I want three more.

6. I don't believe in "the one," or marriage for that matter. Why can't people just be in a relationship and if it doesn't work it doesn't work?

7. Men's clothing/fashion gets me more excited than most things in life. My heart literally races when I go shopping and find things I love.

8. I try not to regret anything in life, though I seriously wish I would have kept in touch more with some of my friends in high school. I wish I wasn't so terrified that they would think less of me now.

9. I was in love only once. It hurt. It still does.

10. My biggest fear is that I will just be average.

11. My second is that I will never find someone to fall in love with again. Am I doomed to spend the rest of my life without a partner? Who will surprise me with dirty messages on the fridge?

12. Charlotte from Sex and the City touched me more than any TV character ever could because of number 11. She said to the girls, “Maybe we could be each other’s soul mates. And men could be these great nice guys to have fun with." I believe my friends are my soul mates, and I could think of no other people I would rather spend my life with.

13. Wall-E is the greatest love story I have ever seen.

14. I act like my family is not that important to me, but I named my blog after the street number of the house I grew up in (also a Rufus Wainwright song). They mean more to me than I would ever let on.

15. A college instructor once told me that sometimes "life just gets in the way of living." I understand that.

16. College was truly some of the greatest years of my life..so far.

17. The saddest day of my life was my last day in Bloomington. I left behind so much, and I cried the entire drive home.

18. I have to finish lunch and dinner with something sweet. I go crazy if I don't get sugar after a meal.

19. One of the greatest pleasures I have ever experienced is the simple joy of sitting outside on a summer evening enjoying drinks with friends. I long for another summer of this.

20. I am a terrible singer, but I love to do it.

21. I have a finally found an apartment I feel at home in.

22. I always have iced tea in my fridge. Not that shitty instant stuff or the kind you buy at the store either. I make my own. My mom makes the best iced tea ever, and everyone in my family tries so hard to do it as well as her.

23. I feel most free on the dancefloor.

24. I had just signed a lease on the apartment I shared with Chad after moving to Indy when I was offered a teaching job in Southern IN at the school I student taught at. I turned it down. I lied to my family and said they wanted someone with media experience like yearbook.

25. I shudder every time I think what my life would have been like had I accepted the position. I think it was one my best decisions ever. I would have never met some of the people I now love. I would not have some of the most amazing experiences I know. I would feel so average and it would have been the closest thing to a nightmare to me.